Lately, my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed
Thinkin' maybe the hate'll finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen
Sanderlei Silveira - 22/02/2024 11:36 - US X
Lately, my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed
Thinkin' maybe the hate'll finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen
Just like I wish they would understand me one time
I had a breakdown and tatted my entire body except one line
Everything's just fine
(Slippin' again) There I go, slippin' again, I'm actin' different again
I see my family's reflection
Every time I look in the cup and I sip it again
(After this ends) Tell me, after all this ends
Will I be mentioned again? Why do I care?
If in the end, it's just me and God, like I'm Christian again (Yeah)
(Slim, bring the beat in)
Before my dad left this Earth
He made sure I took on every quality I didn't want
I was supposed to die at birth
Gave me a chance and I fucked it up, give me another one (Mm)
I've been runnin' from
Secrets I hid as a kid and I never confronted 'em
I just called ma, said I forgive her
For not bein' there when I needed one
[Chorus]
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go
[Verse 2]
Who am I when the music stops?
And the character that I been playin'
Is really just broken and fuckin' lost?
I swear, I've been tellin' you
Over and over again in all of these songs
But they don't hear nothin' I'm writin'
Cause they're too busy tryna write me off
And they go on and on and on
It's funny, 'cause if we just sat and talked
You'd see that it's just hard for me to be vulnerable
Cause I blocked it off
I got trust issues, growin' up
No one was there to hear what I thought
My heart was broken like my ribs as a kid
When me and my father fought (Yeah)
I'm medicating with something that I cannot pronounce
But it's what the doctor gave me
Rehab patient, with a pen and some paper (Mm)
This psychiatrist keeps evaluating
How can I live with the fact
That my hand wasn't on her stomach when we lost the baby?
I don't got no one to turn to
Cause everyone's dead in my life that was tryna raise me
Searchin' for someone to tell me who I really am
I don't know when I look in the mirror
Constantly dreadin' the day
That the audience might not be screaming for me anymore
The feeling of dying alone
And not leaving anything behind is my biggest fear
Kiss the person that I love
As if I'm never coming back after I leave out the door
[Chorus]
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Feelin' like)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, don't let me go
U posljednje vrijeme moje misli me jedu živih
Položen u krevet
Misliti možda možda će mržnja konačno otići ako nisam živ
Volio bih da nisam slušao
Baš kao što bih volio da me jednom razumjevaju
Imao sam kvar i nataknuo cijelo tijelo osim jednog retka
Sve je u redu
(Opet klizi) tamo idem, ponovo klizim, opet se ponašam drugačije
Vidim odraz moje porodice
Svaki put kada pogledam u šolju i ponovo ga gupam
(Nakon ovog kraja) Recite mi, nakon svega toga
Hoću li ponovo spomenuti? Zašto me briga?
Ako na kraju, to je samo ja i Bog, kao da sam opet kršćanin (da)
(Vitak, donesi tuku)
Pre nego što je moj otac napustio ovu zemlju
Pobrinuo se da sam poprimio svaku kvalitetu koju nisam hteo
Trebala sam umrijeti po rođenju
Dao mi je šansu i ja sam ga sjebao, daj mi još jedan (mm)
Ja sam trčao
Tajne koje sam sakrio kao dijete i nikad ih nisam suočio
Samo sam zvao mama, rekao sam da joj oprostim
Jer se neću tamo neću biti potreban
[Chorus]
Dolazim, samo me pusti
Dolazim, samo me pusti, da
Dolazim, samo me pusti
Dolazim, ne pusti me
[VERSE 2]
Ko sam ja kad se muzika prestane?
I lik koji sam igrao
Je li stvarno samo slomljen i jebeno izgubljen?
Kunem se, rekao sam ti
Iznova i iznova u svim tim pjesmama
Ali ne čuju ništa što nisam pisnuo
Jer su previše zauzeti pokušaj, pišite mi
I oni nastaju i dalje i dalje
Smiješno je, jer ako smo samo sjedili i razgovarali
Vidjeli biste da mi je teško da budem ranjiv
Jer sam ga blokirao
Imam problema sa poverenjem, rasteći
Niko nije bio tamo da čuje šta sam mislio
Moje srce slomilo se kao moja rebra kao dijete
Kad se ja i moj otac borili (da)
Medici sam sa nečim što ne mogu izgovoriti
Ali to mi je dao doktor
Rehabilitarni pacijent, olovkom i nekim papirom (mm)
Ovaj psihijatar nastavlja ocjenjivati
Kako mogu živjeti s činjenicom
Da moja ruka nije bila na stomaku kad smo izgubili bebu?
Nemam nikoga da se obratim
Jer su svi mrtvi u mom životu koji su me probali
Pretražuju da mi neko kaže ko sam ja
Ne znam kad se pogledam u ogledalo
Neprestano se deruje dan
Da publika možda više ne može vrištati za mene
Osjećaj umiranja samim
A ne ostavljajući ništa iza toga moj je najveći strah
Poljubite osobu koju volim
Kao da se nikad ne vraćam nakon što ostavim vrata
[Chorus]
Dolazim, samo me pusti (osjećaj se)
Dolazim, samo me pusti, da
Dolazim, samo me pusti
Dolazim, ne pusti me (mm)
Dolazim, samo me pusti (mm)
Vraćam se, samo me pusti, da (mm)
Dolazim, samo me pusti (mm)
Dolazim, ne pusti me