Lately, my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed
Thinkin' maybe the hate'll finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen
Sanderlei Silveira - 22/02/2024 11:37 - US X
Lately, my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed
Thinkin' maybe the hate'll finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen
Just like I wish they would understand me one time
I had a breakdown and tatted my entire body except one line
Everything's just fine
(Slippin' again) There I go, slippin' again, I'm actin' different again
I see my family's reflection
Every time I look in the cup and I sip it again
(After this ends) Tell me, after all this ends
Will I be mentioned again? Why do I care?
If in the end, it's just me and God, like I'm Christian again (Yeah)
(Slim, bring the beat in)
Before my dad left this Earth
He made sure I took on every quality I didn't want
I was supposed to die at birth
Gave me a chance and I fucked it up, give me another one (Mm)
I've been runnin' from
Secrets I hid as a kid and I never confronted 'em
I just called ma, said I forgive her
For not bein' there when I needed one
[Chorus]
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go
[Verse 2]
Who am I when the music stops?
And the character that I been playin'
Is really just broken and fuckin' lost?
I swear, I've been tellin' you
Over and over again in all of these songs
But they don't hear nothin' I'm writin'
Cause they're too busy tryna write me off
And they go on and on and on
It's funny, 'cause if we just sat and talked
You'd see that it's just hard for me to be vulnerable
Cause I blocked it off
I got trust issues, growin' up
No one was there to hear what I thought
My heart was broken like my ribs as a kid
When me and my father fought (Yeah)
I'm medicating with something that I cannot pronounce
But it's what the doctor gave me
Rehab patient, with a pen and some paper (Mm)
This psychiatrist keeps evaluating
How can I live with the fact
That my hand wasn't on her stomach when we lost the baby?
I don't got no one to turn to
Cause everyone's dead in my life that was tryna raise me
Searchin' for someone to tell me who I really am
I don't know when I look in the mirror
Constantly dreadin' the day
That the audience might not be screaming for me anymore
The feeling of dying alone
And not leaving anything behind is my biggest fear
Kiss the person that I love
As if I'm never coming back after I leave out the door
[Chorus]
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Feelin' like)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, don't let me go
V zadnjem času me misli pojedo živo
Položen v posteljo
Misli, da bo sovraštvo končno izginilo, če nisem živ
Želim si, da ne bi poslušal
Tako kot bi si želel, da bi me enkrat razumeli
Imel sem razčlenitev in si zataknil celotno telo, razen ene vrstice
Vse je v redu
(Spet 'Slippin' Spet) grem, spet zdrs ', spet sem drugačen
Vidim razmislek moje družine
Vsakič, ko pogledam v skodelico in jo spet srkam
(Po tem se konča) Povejte mi, navsezadnje se konča
Ali bom spet omenjen? Zakaj me zanima?
Če na koncu to samo jaz in Bog, kot da sem spet kristjan (ja)
(Vitko, prinesite utrip)
Preden je moj oče zapustil to zemljo
Poskrbel je, da sem prevzel vsako kakovost, ki je nisem želela
Ob rojstvu naj bi umrl
Dal mi je priložnost in sem jo zajebal, dal mi še enega (mm)
Tekel sem od
Skrivnosti, ki sem jih skrival kot otrok in se jih nikoli nisem soočil
Pravkar sem poklical ma, rekel, da ji odpuščam
Ker ne bi bil tam, ko sem ga potreboval
[Refren]
Prihajam nazaj, samo pusti me
Prihajam nazaj, samo pusti me, ja
Prihajam nazaj, samo pusti me
Prihajam nazaj, ne pusti me
[Verz 2]
Kdo sem, ko se glasba ustavi?
In lik, ki sem ga igral
Je res samo zlomljeno in prekleto izgubljeno?
Prisežem, ti sem govoril
Znova in znova v vseh teh pesmih
Ampak ne slišijo nič
Ker so preveč zaposleni, mi jo odpišite
In nadaljujejo in naprej
Smešno je, ker smo samo sedeli in se pogovarjali
Videli bi, da je težko biti ranljiv
Ker sem ga blokiral
Imam težave z zaupanjem, raste
Nihče ni bil tam, da bi slišal, kaj sem mislil
Srce mi je bilo razbito kot moja rebra kot otrok
Ko sva se z očetom borila (ja)
Zdralujem z nečim, česar ne morem izgovoriti
Ampak to mi je dal zdravnik
Rehab pacient, s peresom in nekaj papirja (mm)
Ta psihiater še naprej ocenjuje
Kako lahko živim s tem
Da moja roka ni bila na trebuhu, ko smo izgubili otroka?
Nimam nikogar, na katerega se ne bi obrnil
Ker so vsi mrtvi v mojem življenju, ki je bil poskus, da me vzgaja
Iskanje, da mi nekdo pove, kdo sem v resnici
Ne vem, kdaj se pogledam v ogledalo
Nenehno se bodi na dan
Da občinstvo morda ne bo več kričalo
Občutek umiranja sam
In ne puščam ničesar za seboj je moj največji strah
Poljubi osebo, ki jo imam rad
Kot da se nikoli več ne vračam, ko zapustim vrata
[Refren]
Prihajam nazaj, samo pusti me (počutim se)
Prihajam nazaj, samo pusti me, ja
Prihajam nazaj, samo pusti me
Prihajam nazaj, ne pusti me (mm)
Prihajam nazaj, samo pusti me (mm)
Prihajam nazaj, samo pusti me, ja (mm)
Prihajam nazaj, samo pusti me (mm)
Prihajam nazaj, ne pusti me