Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Sanderlei Silveira - 30/06/2023 - BR X
Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Doesn't matter if it's true, though
Just as long as it's entertaining to you, right?
You guys having fun?
[Chorus]
All aboard the toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
The toxic gossip train
You got a one-way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
Tie me to the tracks and harass me for my past
Those rumors look like facts if you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
At least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
Uh, hi, everyone
I've been wanting to come online and talk to you about a few things
Um, even though my team has strongly advised me to not say what I want to say
I recently realized that they never said that I couldn't sing what I wanna say, so
Here I am, and, um, today I only wanna talk about the facts
So, I hope that you'll be willing to listen
Here we go
Many years ago, I used to message my fans
Uh, but not in a creepy way like a lot of you are trying to suggest
It was more of a loser kind of way
Where I was just trying to be besties with everybody
It was kinda like, uh, when you go to like a family gathering, you know?
And there's a weird aunt there who keeps coming up to you and going like "Hey, girl, what's the tea!"
And you're like "Ehhh"
Um, that was me, but in group chats with my fans, it was weird
[Verse 1]
I've been sharing my life online for over 15 years
I've poured my heart out to you and because of that I feel
Like I'm talking to my friends, but, in the beginning of my career
I didn't really understand that maybe there should be some boundaries there
There were times in the DMs when I would overshare
Details of my life, which was really weird of me
I haven't done that for years, you see
Because I changed my behavior, and I took accountability
[Spoken]
But that's not very interesting, is it?
[Chorus]
So let's go on the toxic gossip train
The locomotive's fueled with hateful accusations
The toxic gossip train
Steamroll over someone's reputation
Toxic gossip train
Hop on board, but close your eyes, otherwise you'll realize
That the train is made of lies and that person you despise
Maybe didn't deserve to die
But hey, at least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
In all seriousness, I do think it's really important to hold people accountable for their mistakes
Um, y'know, we should hope that everyone can learn from their mistakes
And grow, and change their behavior, and be a better person
This is something that I've always tried to do when I make mistakes
And is something that I will continue to try t- what?
Oh, you don't care? Oh, okay
[Verse 2]
I thought you wanted me to take accountability
But that's not the point of your mob mentality, is it? No
Your goal is to ruin the life of the person you despise
While you dramatize your lies and monetize their demise
[Spoken]
Yeah, um, I feel like I can already hear the comments on this video
She's gaslighting, manipulating!
Ugh, she's a narcissist and a rat!
I would never make a mistake like that.
[Verse 3]
Oh, I'm sorry I didn't realize
That all of you are perfect, so please, criticize me
Bring out the daggers made from your perfect past
And stab me repeatedly in my bony little back
I'm sure you're disappointed in my shitty little song
I know that you wanted me to say that I was 100% in the wrong
Well, I'm sorry, I'm not gonna take that route
Of admitting to lies and rumors that you made up for clout
[Verse 4]
Hey everybody, I found someone new to harass
She did some things that I do not like, in her past
So everybody, gather 'round, 'cause we're about to attack
But not based on facts, oh no
Your loaded lethal weapon is your fingers on the keys
You don't need any armor when you can hide behind a screen
So, shoot me down, quick, with a click, and bam
My reputation's deceased
[Spoken]
Uh, I also wanted to take a minute to talk about that girl, Miranda Sings
You know the one, yeah her
Uh, she's PG-13, it says that on my website
[Verse 5]
And it's always been that way
And that's why you won't find my videos on the YouTube Kids app
Anyway, um, I didn't realize it was my responsibility
To decide what was appropriate for every kid to see
I've always relied on parents to decide if they're comfortable
With their families watching my YouTube videos or coming to my live shows
Now, have I made some jokes in poor taste? Yes
Have I made lots of dumb mistakes? Yes
Am I sad that there's some fans that feel betrayed? Yes
But was my intention to manipulate? No
[Spoken]
It doesn't really matter what my intention was
Cause it seems as though everyone's already decided on that
Let me tell you, it's not very fun to have millions of people all over the world
Call you the most vile, horrendous, disgusting, life-ruining words
That a person can be called, in my opinion
Um, it doesn't matter that these things aren't true
Uh, everyone just believes that you are the type of person who manipulates and abuses children
So, I just wanted to say that, um
The only thing that I've ever groomed is my two Persian cats
I'm not a groomer, I'm just a loser
[Verse 6]
Who didn't understand I shouldn't respond to fans
And I'm not a predator even though a lot of you think so
Because 5 years ago, I made a fart joke
So, even though I know this video won't change anyone's mind about me
I still felt it was important to come on here and defend myself a little
And take accountability
And I also wanted to say that
To anyone out there who has ever supported me in any capacity
[Spoken]
I really, really appreciate you, thank you
For what it's worth, I never had any bad intentions
But I do feel like shit
[Chorus]
The toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
Toxic gossip train
You got a one way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
You tied me to the tracks and harassed me for my past
Rumors look like facts when you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
Hope you had some fun
[Spoken]
Actually, y'know, I feel like maybe I should let you guys know something, um
Seems like, maybe you're confused about something? I don't know
Let me try to help, um
[Outro]
Sometimes people make a mistake and it doesn't make them a horrible person, whoa
Sometimes people can make a mistake and they're still a good person
Crazy, I know
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you don't have to take that mistake, oh no
And twist it up, and grind it, and add some lies to it, and pulverize it
And stab it with knives, and ruin a life, and, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake, it doesn't mean you gotta send them hate, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you can kindly let them know, and help them to grow
Sometimes people make mistakes, simply because they made a mistake?
And that mistake doesn't make them a terrible human
It just makes them a human
[Spoken]
But what do I know?
Fuck me, right?
Zdravo! Minilo je nekaj časa, odkar si videl moj obraz
Nisem delal tako super
Tako sem si vzel malo odmora
Veliko ljudi govori o meni, ki niso povsem resnične
Ni pomembno, ali je res
Dokler vam bo zabavno, kajne?
Fantje se zabavate?
[Refren]
Vsi na vlaku za strupene tračeve
Pogajanje sledi napačnih informacij
Vlak za strupene trače
Dobili ste enosmerno vozovnico do manipulacijske postaje
Toksični trač vlak
Privežite me na skladbe in me nadlegujte za svojo preteklost
Te govorice so videti kot dejstva, če vas ne motijo vrzeli
Ne bom preživel v nesreči, ampak hej
Vsaj se zabavate
[Govorjeno]
Uh, živjo, vsi
Želel sem priti na splet in se z vami pogovarjati o nekaj stvareh
Hm, čeprav mi je močno svetovala, naj ne povem, kaj želim povedati
Pred kratkim sem spoznal, da nikoli niso rekli, da ne morem peti, kar želim povedati, torej
Tukaj sem in, hm, danes želim samo govoriti o dejstvih
Torej, upam, da boste pripravljeni poslušati
Tu gremo
Pred mnogimi leti sem svoje oboževalce sporočil
Uh, vendar ne na grozljiv način, kot si veliko vas poskuša predlagati
To je bila bolj zguba
Kjer sem se samo trudil biti z vsemi
Bilo je nekako všeč, uh, ko greš na družinsko druženje, veš?
In tam je čudna teta, ki še vedno prihaja do vas in gre kot "Hej, punca, kaj je čaj!"
In ti si kot "ehhh"
Hm, to sem bil jaz, toda v skupinskih klepetih s svojimi oboževalci je bilo čudno
[Verz 1]
Svoje življenje na spletu delim že več kot 15 let
Srce sem vam izlil in zaradi tega čutim
Kot da se pogovarjam s prijatelji, ampak na začetku svoje kariere
V resnici nisem razumel, da bi morda moralo biti tam nekaj meja
V DMS so bili časi, ko bi zasenčil
Podrobnosti o mojem življenju, kar je bilo res čudno
Tega že leta ne počnem, vidite
Ker sem spremenil svoje vedenje in sem prevzel odgovornost
[Govorjeno]
Ampak to ni zelo zanimivo, kajne?
[Refren]
Torej gremo na vlak za strupene trače
Lokomotiva se je poganjala s sovražnimi obtožbami
Vlak za strupene trače
Pari nad ugledom nekoga
Toksični trač vlak
Skočite na krov, vendar zaprite oči, sicer se boste zavedali
Da je vlak sestavljen iz laži in tiste osebe, ki jo prezirate
Mogoče si ni zaslužil umreti
Ampak hej, vsaj si zabaven
[Govorjeno]
Po vsej resnosti mislim, da je resnično pomembno, da ljudje odgovorni za svoje napake
Hm, veste, upamo, da se bodo lahko vsi naučili na svojih napakah
In rastejo in spreminjajo svoje vedenje in bodite boljši človek
To je nekaj, kar sem vedno poskušal početi, ko delam napake
In je nekaj, kar bom še naprej poskusil t- Kaj?
Oh, ti je vseeno? Vredu
[Verz 2]
Mislil sem, da hočeš, da prevzamem odgovornost
Toda to ni poanta vaše miselnosti mafije, kajne? Ne
Vaš cilj je uničiti življenje osebe, ki jo prezirate
Medtem ko dramatizirate svoje laži in zaslužite njihovo smrt
[Govorjeno]
Ja, hm, počutim se, kot da že slišim komentarje na tem videoposnetku
Ona je osvetljena, manipulira!
Ugh, ona je narcisoid in podgana!
Nikoli ne bi naredil takšne napake.
[Verz 3]
Oh, žal mi je, da se nisem zavedal
Da ste vsi popolni, zato me prosim kritizirajte
Prinesite bodala, narejene iz vaše popolne preteklosti
In me večkrat zabodel v koščeno malo nazaj
Prepričan sem, da ste razočarani nad mojo usrano majhno pesem
Vem, da si hotel, da rečem, da sem 100% v napačnem
No, žal mi je, ne bom šel po tej poti
Priznanje laži in govoricam, ki ste jih nadoknadili za Clout
[Verz 4]
Hej vsi, našel sem nekoga novega, ki bi nadlegoval
Naredila je nekaj stvari, ki mi ni všeč, v svoji preteklosti
Torej vsi, zbrani "krog", ker bomo kmalu napadli
Vendar ne temelji na dejstvih, oh
Vaše naloženo smrtonosno orožje je vaše prste na tipkah
Ko se lahko skrijete za zaslonom
Torej, ustreli me navzdol, hitro, s klikom in bam
Pokojni moj ugled
[Govorjeno]
Uh, tudi jaz sem si želel vzeti minuto, da bi se pogovarjal o tej deklici, Miranda poje
Veste tistega, ja ona
Uh, ona je PG-13, piše, da na moji spletni strani
[Verz 5]
In vedno je bilo tako
In zato v aplikaciji YouTube Kids ne boste našli mojih videoposnetkov
Kakorkoli, hm, nisem se zavedal, da je to moja odgovornost
Odločiti se, kaj je primerno za vsakega otroka
Vedno sem se zanašal na starše, da bi se odločil, ali jim je prijetno
Ker njihove družine gledajo moje videoposnetke na YouTubu ali prihajajo na moje oddaje v živo
Zdaj sem naredil nekaj šale po slabem okusu? DA
Sem naredil veliko neumnih napak? DA
Ali sem žalostna, da obstajajo nekateri oboževalci, ki se počutijo izdane? DA
A je bil moj namen manipulacije? Ne
[Govorjeno]
V resnici ni pomembno, kakšen je bil moj namen
Ker se zdi, kot da so se vsi že odločili za to
Naj vam povem, ni prav zabavno imeti milijone ljudi po vsem svetu
Poimenujte vas najbolj grozljive, grozljive, gnusne, življenje, ki jih poganja
Da se človek po mojem mnenju lahko imenuje
Hm, ni pomembno, da te stvari niso resnične
Uh, vsi samo verjamejo, da ste tip osebe, ki manipulira in zlorablja otroke
Torej, to sem hotel samo povedati, hm
Edino, kar sem kdaj negoval, sta moji dve perzijski mački
Nisem negovalec, samo zguba
[Verz 6]
Ki ni razumel, ne bi smel odgovoriti na oboževalce
In nisem plenilec, čeprav veliko od vas tako misli
Ker sem se pred 5 leti šalil
Torej, čeprav vem, da ta video ne bo nikogar spremenil o meni
Še vedno se mi je zdelo, da je pomembno priti sem in se malo braniti
In prevzemite odgovornost
In tudi to sem hotel povedati
Vsem, ki so me kdaj podpirali v kakršni koli vlogi
[Govorjeno]
Resnično te zelo cenim, hvala
Za kaj je vredno, nikoli nisem imel slabih namenov
Ampak počutim se kot sranje
[Refren]
Vlak za strupene trače
Pogajanje sledi napačnih informacij
Toksični trač vlak
Dobili ste enosmerno vozovnico za manipulacijsko postajo
Toksični trač vlak
Privezali ste me na skladbe in me nadlegovali za svojo preteklost
Govorice so videti kot dejstva, ko vas ne motijo vrzeli
Ne bom preživel v nesreči, ampak hej
Upam, da ste se zabavali
[Govorjeno]
Pravzaprav, veste, počutim se, kot da bi vam moral nekaj obvestiti, hm
Zdi se, da ste morda zaradi nečesa zmedeni? Nevem
Naj poskusim pomagati, hm
[OUTRO]
Včasih se ljudje zmotijo in jih ne naredi grozljiva oseba, kaj
Včasih se ljudje lahko zmotijo in so še vedno dobra oseba
Noro, vem
Včasih se ljudje lahko zmotijo in vam ni treba sprejeti te napake, ne
In ga zasukajte in zmeljete ter mu dodajte nekaj laži ter ga pritrdite
In ga zabodite z noži in pokvarite življenje, in, ne
Včasih se ljudje lahko zmotijo, to še ne pomeni, da jih moraš poslati sovraštvo, oh
Včasih se ljudje lahko zmotijo in jih lahko prijazno sporočite in jim pomagate pri rasti
Včasih ljudje delajo napake, preprosto zato, ker so se zmotili?
In ta napaka jih ne naredi strašnega človeka
To jih samo naredi človeka
[Govorjeno]
Kaj pa vem?
Jebi me, kajne?