Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Sanderlei Silveira - 30/06/2023 - BR X
Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Doesn't matter if it's true, though
Just as long as it's entertaining to you, right?
You guys having fun?
[Chorus]
All aboard the toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
The toxic gossip train
You got a one-way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
Tie me to the tracks and harass me for my past
Those rumors look like facts if you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
At least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
Uh, hi, everyone
I've been wanting to come online and talk to you about a few things
Um, even though my team has strongly advised me to not say what I want to say
I recently realized that they never said that I couldn't sing what I wanna say, so
Here I am, and, um, today I only wanna talk about the facts
So, I hope that you'll be willing to listen
Here we go
Many years ago, I used to message my fans
Uh, but not in a creepy way like a lot of you are trying to suggest
It was more of a loser kind of way
Where I was just trying to be besties with everybody
It was kinda like, uh, when you go to like a family gathering, you know?
And there's a weird aunt there who keeps coming up to you and going like "Hey, girl, what's the tea!"
And you're like "Ehhh"
Um, that was me, but in group chats with my fans, it was weird
[Verse 1]
I've been sharing my life online for over 15 years
I've poured my heart out to you and because of that I feel
Like I'm talking to my friends, but, in the beginning of my career
I didn't really understand that maybe there should be some boundaries there
There were times in the DMs when I would overshare
Details of my life, which was really weird of me
I haven't done that for years, you see
Because I changed my behavior, and I took accountability
[Spoken]
But that's not very interesting, is it?
[Chorus]
So let's go on the toxic gossip train
The locomotive's fueled with hateful accusations
The toxic gossip train
Steamroll over someone's reputation
Toxic gossip train
Hop on board, but close your eyes, otherwise you'll realize
That the train is made of lies and that person you despise
Maybe didn't deserve to die
But hey, at least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
In all seriousness, I do think it's really important to hold people accountable for their mistakes
Um, y'know, we should hope that everyone can learn from their mistakes
And grow, and change their behavior, and be a better person
This is something that I've always tried to do when I make mistakes
And is something that I will continue to try t- what?
Oh, you don't care? Oh, okay
[Verse 2]
I thought you wanted me to take accountability
But that's not the point of your mob mentality, is it? No
Your goal is to ruin the life of the person you despise
While you dramatize your lies and monetize their demise
[Spoken]
Yeah, um, I feel like I can already hear the comments on this video
She's gaslighting, manipulating!
Ugh, she's a narcissist and a rat!
I would never make a mistake like that.
[Verse 3]
Oh, I'm sorry I didn't realize
That all of you are perfect, so please, criticize me
Bring out the daggers made from your perfect past
And stab me repeatedly in my bony little back
I'm sure you're disappointed in my shitty little song
I know that you wanted me to say that I was 100% in the wrong
Well, I'm sorry, I'm not gonna take that route
Of admitting to lies and rumors that you made up for clout
[Verse 4]
Hey everybody, I found someone new to harass
She did some things that I do not like, in her past
So everybody, gather 'round, 'cause we're about to attack
But not based on facts, oh no
Your loaded lethal weapon is your fingers on the keys
You don't need any armor when you can hide behind a screen
So, shoot me down, quick, with a click, and bam
My reputation's deceased
[Spoken]
Uh, I also wanted to take a minute to talk about that girl, Miranda Sings
You know the one, yeah her
Uh, she's PG-13, it says that on my website
[Verse 5]
And it's always been that way
And that's why you won't find my videos on the YouTube Kids app
Anyway, um, I didn't realize it was my responsibility
To decide what was appropriate for every kid to see
I've always relied on parents to decide if they're comfortable
With their families watching my YouTube videos or coming to my live shows
Now, have I made some jokes in poor taste? Yes
Have I made lots of dumb mistakes? Yes
Am I sad that there's some fans that feel betrayed? Yes
But was my intention to manipulate? No
[Spoken]
It doesn't really matter what my intention was
Cause it seems as though everyone's already decided on that
Let me tell you, it's not very fun to have millions of people all over the world
Call you the most vile, horrendous, disgusting, life-ruining words
That a person can be called, in my opinion
Um, it doesn't matter that these things aren't true
Uh, everyone just believes that you are the type of person who manipulates and abuses children
So, I just wanted to say that, um
The only thing that I've ever groomed is my two Persian cats
I'm not a groomer, I'm just a loser
[Verse 6]
Who didn't understand I shouldn't respond to fans
And I'm not a predator even though a lot of you think so
Because 5 years ago, I made a fart joke
So, even though I know this video won't change anyone's mind about me
I still felt it was important to come on here and defend myself a little
And take accountability
And I also wanted to say that
To anyone out there who has ever supported me in any capacity
[Spoken]
I really, really appreciate you, thank you
For what it's worth, I never had any bad intentions
But I do feel like shit
[Chorus]
The toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
Toxic gossip train
You got a one way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
You tied me to the tracks and harassed me for my past
Rumors look like facts when you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
Hope you had some fun
[Spoken]
Actually, y'know, I feel like maybe I should let you guys know something, um
Seems like, maybe you're confused about something? I don't know
Let me try to help, um
[Outro]
Sometimes people make a mistake and it doesn't make them a horrible person, whoa
Sometimes people can make a mistake and they're still a good person
Crazy, I know
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you don't have to take that mistake, oh no
And twist it up, and grind it, and add some lies to it, and pulverize it
And stab it with knives, and ruin a life, and, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake, it doesn't mean you gotta send them hate, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you can kindly let them know, and help them to grow
Sometimes people make mistakes, simply because they made a mistake?
And that mistake doesn't make them a terrible human
It just makes them a human
[Spoken]
But what do I know?
Fuck me, right?
Hej! Prošlo je dosta vremena otkad si mi vidio lice
Ja se nisam bavio tako sjajnim
Pa sam se malo odmorio
Mnogi ljudi govori neke stvari o meni što nisu sasvim istinite
Nije važno da li je istina
Sve dok vam je zabavno, zar ne?
Imate zabavni?
[Chorus]
Sve na brodu toksični tračevi voz
Zakucajući niz zapise dezinformacije
Toksični tračevi voz
Imate jednosmjernu kartu za manipulacijsku stanicu
Toksični tračevi voz
Vežite me na staze i maltretirajte me zbog moje prošlosti
Te glasine izgledaju kao činjenice ako vam ne smeta praznine
Neću preživjeti u sudaru, ali hej
Barem se zabavljate
[Izgovoreno]
Uh, zdravo, svi
Želio sam doći na internetu i razgovarati s vama oko nekoliko stvari
Hm, iako mi je moj tim snažno savjetovao da ne kažem šta želim reći
Nedavno sam shvatio da nikada nisu rekli da ne mogu da pevam ono što želim reći, pa
Evo me, i, hm, danas želim samo razgovarati o činjenicama
Nadam se da ćete biti voljni da slušate
Idemo
Prije mnogo godina
Uh, ali ne na jeziv način kao što puno toga pokušavate predložiti
Bilo je više gubitnika
Gde sam se samo pokušavao biti besti i sa svima
Kao, uh, uh, kad krenete kao porodično okupljanje, znate?
I tu je čudna teta koja tamo stalno dolazi i ide kao "Hej, devojko, šta je čaj!"
A ti si poput "Ehhh"
Hm, to sam bio ja, ali u grupnim chatovima sa svojim navijačima, bilo je čudno
[VERSE 1]
Već više od 15 godina dijelim svoj život na mreži
Izlio sam vam svoje srce i zbog toga se osjećam
Kao da razgovaram sa svojim prijateljima, ali, na početku karijere
Nisam baš shvatio da bi možda tamo trebalo biti nekih granica
Bilo je slučajeva u DMS-u kada bih prekoračio
Detalji mog života, koji je bio zaista čudan od mene
To već nisam učinio godinama, vidite
Jer sam promenio svoje ponašanje i uzeo sam odgovornost
[Izgovoreno]
Ali to nije baš zanimljivo, zar ne?
[Chorus]
Pa idemo na voz toksične tračeve
Lokomotiva se potaknula mržnjom optužbama
Toksični tračevi voz
Steamroll nad nečijom reputacijom
Toksični tračevi voz
Hop na brodu, ali zatvorite oči, inače ćete shvatiti
Da je voz napravljen od laži i ta osoba koju prezirete
Možda nije zaslužio umrijeti
Ali hej, barem si zabavan
[Izgovoreno]
U svemu ozbiljno, mislim da je zaista važno zadržati ljude odgovorne za svoje greške
Hm, znate, trebali bismo se nadati da svi mogu naučiti iz svojih grešaka
I rasti i promeniti svoje ponašanje i biti bolja osoba
To je nešto što sam oduvijek pokušavao učiniti kad napravim greške
I je li nešto što ću i dalje pokušavati - šta?
Oh, nije te briga? U redu
[VERSE 2]
Mislio sam da želiš da preuzmem odgovornost
Ali to nije poenta mentaliteta vaše mob, zar ne? Ne
Vaš je cilj upropastiti život osobe koju prezirete
Dok dramatizirate svoje laži i unovčite njihovu smrt
[Izgovoreno]
Da, hm, osjećam se kao da već mogu čuti komentare na ovaj video
Ona je zabrana, manipulirajući!
Uh, ona je narcista i pacov!
Nikad ne bih napravio tako grešku.
[VERSE 3]
Oh, žao mi je što nisam shvatio
Da ste svi savršeni, pa molim vas, kritikujte me
Izvedi bodeže napravljene od vaše savršene prošlosti
I ubodi me više puta u mojoj boni malo leđa
Siguran sam da si razočarana u mojoj sračkoj pjesmi
Znam da ste htjeli da kažem da sam u krivu 100%
Pa, žao mi je, neću preuzeti tu rutu
Priznanja lažima i glasinama koje ste nadopunili za klađenje
[VERSE 4]
Hej svi, našao sam nekoga novog za maltretiranje
Učinila je neke stvari koje ne volim, u njenoj prošlosti
Pa svi, okupe se ", jer ćemo napadnuti
Ali ne zasnovana na činjenicama, oh ne
Vaše napunjeno smrtonosno oružje su vaši prsti na tipkama
Ne treba vam oklop kada se možete sakriti iza ekrana
Pa, pucaj me, brzo, klikom i KM
Moja reputacija preminula
[Izgovoreno]
Uh, takođe sam hteo da odvojim minut da razgovaram o toj devojci, Miranda pjeva
Znate onu, da je
Uh, ona je PG-13, piše to na mojoj web stranici
[VERSE 5]
I uvek je bio takav način
I zato nećete naći moje video zapise na YouTube Kids App
U svakom slučaju, hm, nisam shvatio da je to bila moja odgovornost
Da odlučim šta je bilo prikladno za svako dijete da vidi
Oduvijek sam se oslanjao na roditelje da odlučim jesu li ugodni
Sa svojim porodicama gledaju moje YouTube video ili dolaze na moje emisije uživo
Jesam li se malo šale lošeg ukusa? Da
Da li sam napravio puno glupih grešaka? Da
Jesam li tužan da postoje neki fanovi koji se osjećaju izdani? Da
Ali bila je moja namjera da manipulišem? Ne
[Izgovoreno]
Zapravo nije važno Koja je moja namjera bila
Jer se čini kao da su svi već odlučili o tome
Dozvolite da vam kažem, nije baš zabavno imati milione ljudi širom svijeta
Nazovite vas najdraže, groznim, odvratnim, rečima za uništavanje života
Da se osoba može pozvati, po mom mišljenju
Hm, nije važno da ove stvari nisu istinite
Uh, svi samo vjeruju da ste tip osobe koja manipulira i zlostavlja djecu
Dakle, samo sam hteo da to kažem, hm
Jedino što sam ikad njegovano su moje dvije perzijske mačke
Ja nisam mlađač, ja sam samo gubitnik
[VERSE 6]
Ko nije razumio da ne bih trebao odgovoriti na navijače
A nisam predator iako mi toliko mislite
Jer prije 5 godina napravio sam prdnu šalu
Dakle, iako znam da ovaj video neće promeniti ničiji um o meni
I dalje sam osjećao da je važno doći ovdje i malo se braniti
I preuzeti odgovornost
I takođe sam hteo da to kažem
Bilo kome važe ko me je ikad podržao u bilo kojem svojstvu
[Izgovoreno]
Zaista, stvarno cijenim te, hvala
Za ono što vrijedi, nikad nisam imao loše namjere
Ali osjećam se kao sranje
[Chorus]
Toksični tračevi voz
Zakucajući niz zapise dezinformacije
Toksični tračevi voz
Imate jednosmjerni kartu za manipulacijsku stanicu
Toksični tračevi voz
Vezali ste me na tragove i maltretirali me zbog moje prošlosti
Glasine izgledaju kao činjenice kada vam ne smeta praznine
Neću preživjeti u sudaru, ali hej
Nadam se da ste se zabavili
[Izgovoreno]
Zapravo, znate, osjećam se kao da bih vam možda trebao dopustiti da nešto znate, hm
Čini mi se, možda si zbunjen zbog nečega? Ne znam
Dozvolite mi da pokušam pomoći, um
[Outro]
Ponekad ljudi pogriješu i ne čini ih užasnom osobom, whoa
Ponekad ljudi mogu pogriješiti i još uvijek su dobra osoba
Ludo, znam
Ponekad ljudi mogu pogriješiti i ne morate ponijeti tu grešku, oh ne
I uvijte ga i gričite ga i dodajte nekoliko laži i pušite ga
I ubodi ga noževima i upropasti život, i, ne, ne
Ponekad ljudi mogu pogriješiti, to ne znači da morate im poslati mržnju, oh ne
Ponekad ljudi mogu pogriješiti i možete ih ljubazno obavijestiti i pomoći im da raste
Ponekad ljudi prave greške, jednostavno zato što su pogriješili?
I ta greška ne čini ih strašnim ljudima
To ih samo čini čovjekom
[Izgovoreno]
Ali šta da znam?
Jebi me, zar ne?