Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be? (Uh-huh)
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
[Verse 1]
by Sanderlei Silveira ® - 28/04/2023 - ES ∞ X
Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be? (Uh-huh)
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
[Verse 1]
Walkin' past the homeless in a Rolex
Just got off the stage on the TODAY Show and I basically felt soulless
Years go by and I keep saying I'm gon' use my phone less
But I should just be phone-less
Ignorance is bliss and so is bein' underground
Cause it was fun when we were known less
Sorry, that's cliche, I know I'm so blessed
But Jason keeps on tellin' me, "Say yes"
And truth be told, I know he knows best
But I don't wanna do no press
I've seen enough of me on this lil' screen
I've become so vain and insecure 'bout everything
I feel all this pressure to live up to what they tell me I'm gon' be
So I isolate myself, you can't help me, it's on me
I'm hidin' any sign of weakness from my guys
I don't want 'em second-guessin' with me
Nemo said to keep my foot on necks 'cause I can't let 'em just forget me
But the brags in my raps are getting less and less convincing
So I'd rather just (Wonder)
[Chorus]
Oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
[Verse 2]
I wrote that first verse in Denver back in September
It's January now and I'm feelin' like myself again
I got Angel back in here, I need his help again
I'm takin' time away but wonderin' what a healthy helping is
Fuck it, they gon' check for me, I tell myself and tell my friends
Avoidin' any talks about the elephant
Chalkin' up the hate to jealousy and just embellishments
But deep down, I find myself wonderin'
If the people that write about are right about me
And I wonder if my exes are oversharin' 'cause they know a lot about me
I'm a long way from Shelby County
I been through some local tension, heard talks of a healthy bounty
Sober and focused, I cannot walk down no deli alleys
I still got the fellas 'round me, I love 'em and tell 'em proudly
My mama needs help adjusting, my father need help accounting
I'm lookin' out heaven's window, I know that there's hell around me and—
[Chorus]
Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
Pitam se, oh, zašto je to ikad moralo biti? (Uh Huh)
Toliko gubitka nade u tim snovima da su -
[Stih 1]
Prošetati beskućnike u rolexu
Upravo sišao s pozornice u emisiji Today i u osnovi sam se osjećao bezdušno
Godine prolaze i stalno kažem da sam manje koristio svoj telefon
Ali trebao bih biti bez telefona
Neznanje je blaženstvo i tako je podzemlje
Jer bilo je zabavno kad smo bili manje poznati
Oprostite, to je kliše, znam da sam tako blagoslovljen
Ali Jason me nastavlja reći: "Reci da"
I istina, znam da on najbolje zna
Ali ne želim se ne tiskati
Dosta sam sebe vidio na ovom lil 'ekranu
Postao sam tako uzaludan i nesiguran 'od svega
Osjećam sav taj pritisak da ispunim ono što mi kažu da sam gon 'biti
Tako da se izoliram, ne možeš mi pomoći, to je na meni
Hidin sam bilo kakav znak slabosti od mojih momaka
Ne želim ih drugo-guziti sa mnom
Nemo je rekao da držim stopalo na vratu jer me ne mogu dopustiti da me samo zaboravi
Ali hvalisavi u mojim silovima postaju sve manje uvjerljivi
Pa bih radije samo (čudo)
[Zbor]
Oh, zašto je to ikad moralo biti?
Toliko gubitka nade u tim snovima da su -
[Stih 2]
Napisao sam taj prvi stih u Denveru u rujnu
Sad je siječanj i opet se osjećam poput sebe
Vratio sam anđela ovdje, opet mi treba njegova pomoć
Odmaknem se, ali pitam se što je zdrava pomoć
Jebi se, oni me provjeravaju, kažem sebi i kažem svojim prijateljima
Izbjegavajte bilo kakve razgovore o slonu
Chalkin 'izmislila zbog ljubomore i samo ukrasa
Ali duboko u sebi, čudim se
Ako su ljudi o kojima piše u pravu o meni
I pitam se jesu li moji bivši prekomjerni jer oni znaju puno o meni
Dug sam put od okruga Shelby
Prošao sam kroz neku lokalnu napetost, čuo razgovore o zdravom bogatstvu
Trijezan i fokusiran, ne mogu hodati ni niz deli uličice
Još uvijek sam dobio momke 'oko mene, volim ih i ponosno ih kažem
Moja mama je potrebna pomoć u prilagođavanju, moj otac je potrebna pomoć u računovodstvu
Izgledam nebeski prozor, znam da oko mene ima pakla i -
[Zbor]
Pitam se, oh, zašto je to ikad moralo biti?
Toliko gubitka nade u tim snovima da su -