Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be? (Uh-huh)
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
[Verse 1]
by Sanderlei Silveira ® - 28/04/2023 - ES ∞ X
Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be? (Uh-huh)
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
[Verse 1]
Walkin' past the homeless in a Rolex
Just got off the stage on the TODAY Show and I basically felt soulless
Years go by and I keep saying I'm gon' use my phone less
But I should just be phone-less
Ignorance is bliss and so is bein' underground
Cause it was fun when we were known less
Sorry, that's cliche, I know I'm so blessed
But Jason keeps on tellin' me, "Say yes"
And truth be told, I know he knows best
But I don't wanna do no press
I've seen enough of me on this lil' screen
I've become so vain and insecure 'bout everything
I feel all this pressure to live up to what they tell me I'm gon' be
So I isolate myself, you can't help me, it's on me
I'm hidin' any sign of weakness from my guys
I don't want 'em second-guessin' with me
Nemo said to keep my foot on necks 'cause I can't let 'em just forget me
But the brags in my raps are getting less and less convincing
So I'd rather just (Wonder)
[Chorus]
Oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
[Verse 2]
I wrote that first verse in Denver back in September
It's January now and I'm feelin' like myself again
I got Angel back in here, I need his help again
I'm takin' time away but wonderin' what a healthy helping is
Fuck it, they gon' check for me, I tell myself and tell my friends
Avoidin' any talks about the elephant
Chalkin' up the hate to jealousy and just embellishments
But deep down, I find myself wonderin'
If the people that write about are right about me
And I wonder if my exes are oversharin' 'cause they know a lot about me
I'm a long way from Shelby County
I been through some local tension, heard talks of a healthy bounty
Sober and focused, I cannot walk down no deli alleys
I still got the fellas 'round me, I love 'em and tell 'em proudly
My mama needs help adjusting, my father need help accounting
I'm lookin' out heaven's window, I know that there's hell around me and—
[Chorus]
Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
Aslida, nima uchun bu bo'lishi kerak edi? (Uh-hu)
Ular bu orzularda umid qilayotgan juda ko'p narsa
[1-oyat]
Rolexda uysizlardan o'tib ketish
Bugungi kunda tomosha qilish sahnasidan chiqib, men asosan taniqli
Yillar o'tib, men o'zimning telefonimni kamroq ishlatishimni aytaman
Ammo men shunchaki telefondan kamroq bo'lishim kerak
Jaholat - bu jannat va undan ham kam bo'lishi kerak
Biz kamroq tanilganimizda, bu juda qiziqarli bo'ldi
Kechirasiz, bu kliche, men juda muborak ekanligimni bilaman
Ammo Jeyson "meni" deb aytmoqda
Va haqiqat aytishi kerak, men u eng yaxshi ekanligini biladi
Lekin men hech qanday matbuot qilmayman
Men bu lil ekranida mendan etarlicha mendan ko'ra
Men juda behuda va xavfli narsa bo'ldim
Men bu bosimni ular menga aytgan narsalarini nima deb aytgan narsalarga muvofiq yashashga harakat qilaman
Shunday qilib, men o'zimni ajratib qo'yaman, siz menga yordam berolmaysiz, bu menda
Men yigitlarimdan zaiflikning har qanday belgisiman
Men bilan ikkinchi gugurtni xohlamayman
Nemo mening oyog'imni bo'ynida ushlab turishni aytdi, men shunchaki unutolmayman
Ammo mening raplardagi maqtovlar kamroq va aniqroq ishonch hosil qilishmoqda
Shunday qilib, men shunchaki (hayron bo'ldim)
[Xor]
Oh, nega bunday bo'lishi kerak edi?
Ular bu orzularda umid qilayotgan juda ko'p narsa
[2-oyat]
Men sentyabrda Denverdagi birinchi oyatni yozdim
Bu endi yanvar va men o'zimni boshqa his qilyapman
Men bu erda farishtaga qaytib keldim, menga yana yordam kerak
Men o'zim uchun vaqtni sinab ko'raman, lekin "sog'lom yordam" nima ekanligini ko'radi
Uni fuck, ular men uchun tekshirib, o'zimni aytaman va do'stlarimga aytayapman
Fil haqidagi har qanday gapdan qochish
Chalinni hasadgo'ylik va adolatli bo'lish uchun nafrat
Lekin chuqur pastga, men o'zimni hayron qilaman
Agar yozadigan odamlar men haqimda to'g'ri bo'lsa
Va mening exsiyalarim juda qo'pollik-yo'qmi, deb hayron bo'laman »'- ular men haqimda juda ko'p narsani bilishadi
Men shelby okrugidan uzoq yo'lman
Men mahalliy taranglik orqali men sog'lom ne'matning muzokaralarini eshitdim
Xushmuomala va diqqat markazida, men hech qanday deli xiyobonlari yo'q
Men hali ham Mevasni oldim, men sevaman va g'urur bilan aytyapman
Mening onam moslashishga yordam beradi, otam buxgalteriya hisobi
Men jannat derazasini ochib, men atrofimdagi do'zax borligini bilaman va
[Xor]
Aslida, nima uchun bu bo'lishi kerak edi?
Ular bu orzularda umid qilayotgan juda ko'p narsa