Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be? (Uh-huh)
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
[Verse 1]
by Sanderlei Silveira ® - 28/04/2023 - ES ∞ X
Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be? (Uh-huh)
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
[Verse 1]
Walkin' past the homeless in a Rolex
Just got off the stage on the TODAY Show and I basically felt soulless
Years go by and I keep saying I'm gon' use my phone less
But I should just be phone-less
Ignorance is bliss and so is bein' underground
Cause it was fun when we were known less
Sorry, that's cliche, I know I'm so blessed
But Jason keeps on tellin' me, "Say yes"
And truth be told, I know he knows best
But I don't wanna do no press
I've seen enough of me on this lil' screen
I've become so vain and insecure 'bout everything
I feel all this pressure to live up to what they tell me I'm gon' be
So I isolate myself, you can't help me, it's on me
I'm hidin' any sign of weakness from my guys
I don't want 'em second-guessin' with me
Nemo said to keep my foot on necks 'cause I can't let 'em just forget me
But the brags in my raps are getting less and less convincing
So I'd rather just (Wonder)
[Chorus]
Oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
[Verse 2]
I wrote that first verse in Denver back in September
It's January now and I'm feelin' like myself again
I got Angel back in here, I need his help again
I'm takin' time away but wonderin' what a healthy helping is
Fuck it, they gon' check for me, I tell myself and tell my friends
Avoidin' any talks about the elephant
Chalkin' up the hate to jealousy and just embellishments
But deep down, I find myself wonderin'
If the people that write about are right about me
And I wonder if my exes are oversharin' 'cause they know a lot about me
I'm a long way from Shelby County
I been through some local tension, heard talks of a healthy bounty
Sober and focused, I cannot walk down no deli alleys
I still got the fellas 'round me, I love 'em and tell 'em proudly
My mama needs help adjusting, my father need help accounting
I'm lookin' out heaven's window, I know that there's hell around me and—
[Chorus]
Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they—
Sprašujem se, oh, zakaj je to kdaj moralo biti? (Uh huh)
Toliko izgubi upanje v teh sanjah, da so -
[Verz 1]
Hodi mimo brezdomcev v rolexu
Pravkar sem se spustil na oder v oddaji danes in v bistvu sem se počutil brezdušnega
Leta minejo in nenehno pravim, da bom manj uporabljal telefon
Ampak jaz bi moral biti brez telefona
Nevednost je blaženost in tako je pod zemljo
Ker je bilo zabavno, ko smo bili znani manj
Oprosti, to je kliše, vem, da sem tako blagoslovljen
Toda Jason mi še naprej govori, "reci da"
In resnico na ljubo, vem, da najbolje ve
Ampak nočem pritiska
Na tem zaslonu sem videl dovolj mene
Postal sem tako zaman in negotovo "
Čutim ves ta pritisk, da bi izpolnil tisto, kar mi pravijo, da sem
Zato se izoliram, ne moreš mi pomagati, to je na meni
Prikrivam kakršen koli znak šibkosti od svojih fantov
Nočem jih z mano
Nemo je rekel, da se držim stopala na vratu, ker jih ne morem pustiti, da me preprosto pozabijo
Toda hvali pri mojih rapih postajajo vse manj prepričljivi
Torej bi raje (sprašujem)
[Refren]
Oh, zakaj je to kdaj moralo biti?
Toliko izgubi upanje v teh sanjah, da so -
[Verz 2]
Prvi verz v Denverju sem napisal septembra
Januar je zdaj in spet se počutim kot jaz
Tukaj dobim angela, spet potrebujem njegovo pomoč
Zavzemam se za čas, toda sprašujem se, kaj je zdrava pomoč
Jebi se, da me preverijo, rečem in povem prijateljem
Izogibajte se pogovorom o slonu
Naredi sovraštvo do ljubosumja in samo okrasitve
Toda globoko v sebi se mi zdi, da se sprašujem
Če imajo ljudje, o katerih pišejo
In sprašujem se, ali so moji bivši nadzralini, ker veliko vedo o meni
Dolga pot sem od okrožja Shelby
Bil sem skozi nekaj lokalne napetosti, slišal pogovore o zdravi obvestili
Trezen in osredotočen, ne morem se sprehoditi po deliliščih
Še vedno imam fantje, ki me okoli, ljubim jih in jih ponosno povem
Moja mama potrebuje pomoč pri prilagajanju, moj oče potrebuje pomoč pri računovodstvu
Gledam skozi nebeško okno, vem, da je okoli mene in ...
[Refren]
Sprašujem se, oh, zakaj je to kdaj moralo biti?
Toliko izgubi upanje v teh sanjah, da so -