Look
Self-awareness, pride's a coat and yes, I like to wear it
Buttoned up don't like to let no air in
With a pair of gloves, that I hope doesn't perish
Look
Self-awareness, pride's a coat and yes, I like to wear it
Buttoned up don't like to let no air in
With a pair of gloves, that I hope doesn't perish
I discovered though when I get holes in 'em and I let joy in, I'm in higher spirits
My mistakes are like a screamin' parrot
Just repeatin' lyrics, I can barely bear it when I'm lost
Road is narrow, I'm lookin' down it like a gun's barrel
Aren't we all searchin' for the serum that could help us breathe and leave our state of peril?
All of us have made defensive scarecrows, that we scatter 'round our fields and treat like heroes
When they scare away the things that we should cherish
Cause we're too embarrassed to admit that fear is that we're lost
Yeah, but what does it matter? If I get so combative
Inside of me's a personal canvas, the paint can be splattered
Get messy when I start to get rattled
The heart of a savage, I'm quiet when I lurk in the shadows
But somethin' don't add up, I don't wanna be overdramatic
But look at the data, it's obvious that humans are fragile
We tend to get mad at the ones that call us out but the fact is we need someone that'll be honest when we fly off the handle
I admit I throw a fit when I begin to unravel
Keep my wits been off the grid but now I'm back in the saddle
My intent is not to rent, I like to own what I value
I could sit here on the fence or maybe pick up the paddle
I like to row against the current, that's the way that I travel
Opposite of what the grain does, got the brain of a rebel
Take initiative, I'm diligent on every level
I never could settle, I like to keep my foot on the pedal, yeah
I'd love to pack arenas and all
But what I really wanna do is learn to handle my thoughts
And put the reigns on 'em, show 'em I'm the one that's the boss
And pull 'em back when they get out of hand, I'm breakin' they jaws
I'm takin' the flaws, that told me I could never evolve
Then pull a Bane on 'em, ask 'em, "Oh, you think you're in charge?"
You oughta know better, ain't no way around it I'm flawed
The traits that I want, they say I can't afford what it cost
[Pre-Chorus 1: NF]
But I, manifested this
Failing's how you grow and learn your lessons kid
Take the worse and try to make the best of it
Cause when you fail just know it's a test and if
You can learn to pick yourself back up again
And train your brain to not be such a pessimist
It's okay to make mistakes, just don't forget that
There's a high road but I skip the exit when I'm lost
[Chorus: NF]
Yeah
When I'm lost
When I'm lost
When I'm lost
When I'm lost, lost
[Verse 2: Hopsin]
Well these burdens are heavy
And I'm hopin' it don't bury me
I used to be so joyful and skip so merrily
But now I'm too cautious and tip toe carefully
My mind left and it's nowhere to be found
Am I a big ol' parody?
Cause it's no fair to me
And now I'm at the point where I'm spending a grand a week on hypnotherapy
Look, I'm tryna wash away my sins
I got a group of loved ones that ain't my friends
And if I ever take an L then they might grin
And they all wanna see me stay in the cage I'm in
So when it comes to anybody there's no trust for no one
Man, so what? My whole plan's to go nuts
My shoulders ready for more shrugs, I'm gon' judge
Anybody tryna enter my circle with no love (Hol' up)
My sanity's gone, I'd rather be torn from this planet they planted me on
Yeas, that's a reward, I'm actually bored with having a sore heart
It's torn apart from a family that I don't have anymore (Now hol' up)
I was livin' so oblivious with millions, it really was a pitty, huh? (A pitty, huh?)
It's kinda funny what a penny does, mixed in with a mini buzz (I feel stuck)
Life's got me by the neck, with a blade against it
Cause I was runnin' late for the train and missed it
The only thing I feel is pain and vengeance
So I'ma act out like a raging misfit
And every verse I lay gon' stay sadistic
You wanna hate me? Good, great, terrific
You'll never see the day where my anger's dismissed
You better go and change your wishlist 'cause I
[Pre-Chorus 2: Hopsin]
Yeah, manifested this
Do not treat me like some adolescent kid
I am praying to the Lord with the Book of James hopin' he gon' add my testament
This dark cloud, that's my residence
Demons knockin', I don't have to let 'em in
I done made mistakes day to day, you probably can't relate
I just ain't the same when I'm lost
[Chorus: NF]
Yeah
When I'm lost
When I'm, when I'm lost
When I'm lost
When I'm lost, lost
Izgled
Samosvijest, ponos je kaput i da, volim ga nositi
Zakopčana ne vole propuštati zrak
S par rukavica, za koje se nadam da neće propasti
Otkrio sam da sam, kad imam rupe u njima i pustim radost, raspoložen
Moje su pogreške poput vrišteće papige
Samo ponavljam tekstove, jedva to podnosim kad se izgubim
Cesta je uska, gledam niz nju poput cijevi pištolja
Nismo li svi u potrazi za serumom koji bi nam mogao pomoći pri disanju i napuštanju stanja pogibelji?
Svi smo napravili obrambena strašila, koja se rasipamo po svojim poljima i ponašamo se kao heroji
Kad uplaše stvari koje bismo trebali njegovati
Jer nam je previše neugodno priznati da je strah to što smo se izgubili
Da, ali kakve to veze ima? Ako postanem tako borben
Unutar mene je osobno platno, boja se može poprskati
Postanem neuredan kad me počnu zveckati
Srce divljaka, tih sam kad vrebam u sjeni
Ali nešto se ne zbraja, ne želim biti pretjeran
Ali pogledajte podatke, očito je da su ljudi krhki
Obično se ljutimo na one koji nas prozivaju, ali činjenica je da nam treba netko tko će biti iskren kad odletimo s kvake
Priznajem da naletim na napad kad se počnem raspetljavati
Neka moja pamet ne bude u mreži, ali sada sam se vratila u sedlo
Moja namjera nije iznajmljivanje, volim posjedovati ono što cijenim
Mogla bih sjediti ovdje na ogradi ili možda podići veslo
Volim veslati protiv struje, to je način na koji putujem
Suprotno onome što žito radi, dobio je mozak pobunjenika
Preuzmi inicijativu, marljiv sam na svim razinama
Nikad se nisam mogao smiriti, volim držati nogu na pedali, da
Volio bih spakirati arene i sve ostalo
Ali ono što stvarno želim jest naučiti se baviti svojim mislima
I stavi vladavinu na njih, pokaži im da sam ja taj šef
I povuci ih natrag kad izmaknu kontroli, slomim im vilice
Uzimam nedostatke koji su mi govorili da nikad neću moći evoluirati
Zatim navucite Banea na njih, pitajte ih, "Oh, ti misliš da si ti glavni?"
Ti bi trebao znati bolje, nema šanse da sam u nedostatku
Osobine koje želim, kažu da si ne mogu priuštiti koliko košta
[Predbilježba 1: NF]
Ali ja sam ovo očitovao
Neuspjeh je kako rasteš i naučiš svoje lekcije, dijete
Uzmite ono gore i pokušajte to najbolje iskoristiti
Jer kad ne uspiješ, samo znaj da je to test i ako
Možete naučiti ponovno se podići
I uvježbaj svoj mozak da ne bude takav pesimist
U redu je pogriješiti, samo to ne zaboravite
Postoji velika cesta, ali preskačem izlaz kad se izgubim
[Refren: NF]
Da
Kad se izgubim
Kad se izgubim
Kad se izgubim
Kad se izgubim, izgubim se
[Stih 2: Hopsin]
Pa ovi tereti su teški
I nadam se da me neće sahraniti
Nekad sam bila tako radosna i tako veselo preskakala
Ali sada sam previše oprezan i pažljivo palcem prsta
Um mi je otišao i nema ga nigdje
Jesam li velika stara parodija?
Jer to prema meni nije pošteno
I sad sam na mjestu kad trošim velikan tjedna na hipnoterapiju
Slušaj, pokušavam oprati svoje grijehe
Imam grupu voljenih koji nisu moji prijatelji
A ako ikad uzmem L, mogli bi se naceriti
I svi me žele vidjeti kako ostajem u kavezu u kojem sam
Dakle, kad je netko u pitanju, nema povjerenja ni za koga
Pa što? Cijeli moj plan je poludjeti
Moja ramena spremna su za još slijeganja ramenima, sudit ću
Svatko pokušava ući u moj krug bez ljubavi (Hol 'up)
Zdrav razum je nestao, radije bih se otrgnuo s ovog planeta na kojem su me zasadili
Da, to je nagrada, zapravo mi je dosadno bolno srce
Razdrto je od obitelji koju više nemam (sad hol ')
Živjela sam tako nesvjesno s milijunima, stvarno je bilo sitno, ha? (Pitty, ha?)
Nekako je smiješno što radi peni, pomiješano s mini zujanjem (osjećam se zaglavljeno)
Život me uhvatio za vrat, s oštricom protiv njega
Jer sam kasnio za vlakom i propustio sam ga
Jedino što osjećam je bol i osveta
Pa ponašam se poput bijesne nesretnice
I svaki moj stih ostaje sadistički
Želiš li me mrziti? Dobro, sjajno, sjajno
Nikada nećete vidjeti dan kada je moja ljutnja otpuštena
Bolje idi i promijeni svoju listu želja jer ja
[Predpjev 2: Hopsin]
Da, očitovao ovo
Ne ponašaj se prema meni kao prema nekom adolescentnom djetetu
Molim se Gospodinu s Knjigom o Jamesu, nadam se da će dodati moj zavjet
Ovaj tamni oblak, to je moje prebivalište
Demoni kucaju, ne moram ih pustiti unutra
Svakodnevno sam griješio, vjerojatno se ne možeš povezati
Jednostavno nisam isti kad se izgubim
[Refren: NF]
Da
Kad se izgubim
Kad sam, kad se izgubim
Kad se izgubim
Kad se izgubim, izgubim se